Chap. 1 pg 13 "Life's Sunset"

Two steps ahead of the darkness,
One step behind the light,
The Glory of the new morning
Drowned out by endless night.
A muted pale pink arises
As nights eternal glow
Brings on spevtacular surprises
As the milky-way softly flows.
Ode to a new land of hope
Hidden in the darkness
Begging for the stars to elope
To a land of simple happiness
And a world of spiritual growths.

Chap 1 pg 12 'Soldom"

The warm light is gone
the spark is dim
now the flame is out of sight
extingushed by the cold wind

The waters cool touch
breaths in me new life
the pain is to much
to last the withstand the torment and strife

The room is dim
the candle burns bright
echoes of the sin
ring out through the night.

Slowly the cloud parts
wages from the long cruel war
moan within the heart.

Chap 1 pg 11 "No One"

no one listens to the screaming
no one watches for a sinking ship
no one save the living
and no one cures the sick.
I use to live in somber summer days
as lightly the cool breeze blows
and my hopes fade away.
Gone with the tide that flows
Destin to walk alone
while all others thrive
shoving it in your face
not telling the secrets they hide.
Left by the roadside
your last, your biggest mistake
you die just a little
with each painful breath you take.
You want to scream
you want to hide
you tell them of your dreams
they tell you to hold it inside
but no one listens to the screaming
no one watches for a sinking ship
no one save the living
and no one cures the sick.

Chap 1 pg 10 "Goodbye"

Once so high and noble
now layed in the turtf.
Once thriving and vivacious
now lost to his mother of dirt.

Not lost in a blaze of glory
but rather in the faintest light
All but time forgot
that once his light shone bright.

We are all destin to the same
on this frail sphere
damned to this life
as the next one draws near.

Chap 1 pg 9 'I Am"

I am a martyer
for you have slane me
spilled my blood
before I could do it myself.

I am a saint
I taught you
you ignored me
now I'm gone you see my wisdom.

I am death
I stood behind you
in your shadow.
Now I have realesed you.

I am birth
I gave you all
and still it wasn't enough.

I am the sage
I warn you
of things that happen now
for they will haunt you always.

Chap 1 pg 8 "In You"

This is my beautiful disaster.
This is how I fall.
Not trying to slow, but going faster.
I changed it all.

Lost the one that I needed.
I gave up up on all I knew.
I know now that I'm conceded.
when it came to love, it was you.

Now I lay down my head,
and I spread my wings.
Thoughts of sorrow and dread.
I had it all, in you.

Chap 1 pg 7 "I Met Myself"

I met myself at a cross-roads
I did not blink
Not knowing what to do
my heart began to sink.

It was myself I feared.
Not some great beast
my mind my greatest enemy
a preverbiale feast.

You opened the door
pulled bake the shade
Now my eyes are open
no more to fade away.

Chap 1 pg 6 "Still Miss You"

Fly me away to a diffrent world,
to a land of no pain or suffering.
Where the days don't end,
and I'd be with you my friend
We'd laugh and cheer as before.

But your gone tonight,
you left a whole in my heart
The only way I see you is my dreams.
The one who filled my soul with light.

But the days we had are done,
someday we'll meet again.
In a brighter land of joy.
Till then, your name I hear in the wind

Chap 1 pg 5 "Quite"

Be still, it is the quite of the night, t
he winds are blowing there wisdom...
They are saying
Go calmly through this world, and you will see it's beauty.
Never turn you back on your friends, even when they have to you.
Pray for your enemies, for they may need it more then you think.
Trust without fear, for God will keep you.
Care for your family deeply, you may need them soon.
Do not concern yourself with small things, they matter not in the big scheme.
and above all, this truth hold the deepest:
Love uncondittionally, for then you will be open to it's great power!

Chap. 1 pg 4 "Gone"

You'll never know how much I love you!
You'll never know how much I care,
but some day, when I don't answer
you know that I am not there.
I tried to love you with all my heart,
to you I was not important enough
so I decided to depart.
You had your chance,
but now I've moved on.
Now your ready to love me,
but I am long gone.
For I loved you as long as I could.
Until the thought of you hurt me so.
I won't seek you anymore
but rather let my heart grow...
grow fonder for another,
one who can heal this pain.
Who's passions run wild
without any restrain

Chap 1 pg 3 "Away"

It's come to this, our "change"
Lets not waiste time saying the words of others.
Let's write our own book, compose our own song.
Take life and run to the end of the pier, where the
children fish.I don't know why I'm feeling this way, but I want
to set us free. Let's dance in the dusk, betwist the
graves of those whom have gone before.
Let's paint or own beautiful picture.
I place flowers in your hair to match the diamonds
in your eyes. We'll travel beyond this place to a
domain of dazzling lights, to the land of love.
Strolling under the Arc de triumph.
Away, we will change....

Chap. 1 pg 2 "Poison of Love"

Those poisonous eyes that draw me further inward.
Lips that beckon to be kissed with a passion so hott.
Skin that longs to be caressed by my soft hand.
You are undeniable, the embodiment of beauty.
Avidity never smiled so gladly as when she looked on you,
for you are the one that the angels sing of.
And yet you are with another, I can't say leave her
for I know you love her, but I can't say forget about me
for even if I must see you with another, it is still
better than not seeing you at all.
For I know that I love you, with something that I don't
fully understand myself, but I know it is strong.
I love you and always will no matter what happens
or where things lead. You are far more dear to me than
you can possibly realize.

Chapter 1 pg 1 "Here I am?"

So I'm just a boy,stuck in the suburbs
no one to love, just people to hate.
Breaking the glass, shattering the window
walking the grass, creating my own path.
So here I am, Painting with oils
dripping of blood, not mixing so well.
I painted this life, sculpted my own hell
don't need you sympathy
just a voice to scream with.
So here I am...

The Start & Forward

This blog is the first step towards my book "The Conscious Destruction of the Planetarium Solaris; A Brief Synopsis of Mankind".... A short time ago, in a not so distant galaxy called my mind, a light was turned on and I decided to create a new kind of novel,play, compilation, short story, about poetry. It is my intent to compile my work, both literary and artistic, into a collection for the world to understand the maddness, and sanity I have found in the sollitude of my wisdom and ignorance. The items contained here in are my soul work unless otherwise stated. In addition at some point I may ask for poetry or stories to be added to this collection, if and when that occurs the appropriate people will be given just credit.

Forward:

I dedicate this book/blog to friends past, For thier dreams, schemes, and fairy wings. Without their touching impact on my life who knows where I might be; God forbid an author. Fly away little birdies but don't hit the bug zapper! Oh shit too late....
To my Grandmother, the wise and humerious old bat that inspired me to write and follow my dreams
To Nana Peg (Margaret Lord Kurzmen) The crazy Godmother, I remeber every word you ever told me, all the funny little crazy things that helped to form me into me, not to mention the over the top style that was iconic of your soul.
To Celeste, dear friend gone to soon. You inspire me more than you realize.
And To all of my friends, here, there and beyond, in this demention and to the other galaxy, with and without hair pieces. Thank you all for being there.